This blog was supposed to be able to help others that are going through the same stuff I am such as CML, Diabetes and being over weight, deal with life’s up’s and downs. However, all I seem to be doing is bringing myself down. How can I be helping others if I can’t seem to help myself. I keep telling myself that once I get my health back on track I’ll be able to use this experience to help others if and when they go through something similar.
First things first. I’m still dealing with my labored breathing. I think the last time I posted that I was going to see my cardiologist. Well I did and he scheduled a echo cardiogram of my heart. Really! The problem is not my heart but fluid retention in my lungs. Anyway, had the test done and after a few days I got a call stating that all was fine. Then he scheduled a CT scan of my lungs this past Thursday, nothing heard as of yet. I have an appointment with my GP on Tuesday and my pulmonary on Wednesday. Keep in mind that every time I have to take off to go to the doctor I have to work over to make up for the time lost. I’m so sick and tired of having to stay late it’s about to drive me nuts. Of course, that’s another story.
In the mean time…my employer is stressing me out. I’m not exactly sure what I’ve posted about this but my boss has noticed some memory problems going on with me. I, of course have denied all of it but it turns out that I am having some memory issues. They’ve run a bunch of tests including some neurological tests that are not covered by my insurance company. I’ll be paying for these tests for years to come. But it seems that I’m having some short term memory loss. The neuro psychologist has even diagnosed me with amnesia. Seriously?? Now my employer is wanting to demote me to a lower pay grade because I can’t do my previous job because of some safety issues. If it wasn’t for the money issues I wouldn’t mind doing the job I’m doing now because it’s a whole lot less stressful. As of yet the doctors have not determined why I’m having these memory issues. They’ve done a MRI of my head and of course they didn’t find anything up there. (Pun) and they’ve pretty much ruled out my medications as well.
On top of all this the associate health nurse is telling me to seriously consider disability. I’ve checked into it and can’t afford doing the things it’s asking me to do. For instance, if you make more than $1300 a month you will be denied right off the bat. With two kids in college, one at home, a wife and all my bills there is no way I can live off of $1300 a month. I have got less than 23 months before I can retire. I told the nurse not to mention disability again to me unless she want’s to pay my bills while I’m off making less than $1300 a month. She didn’t much like that comment.
Regardless how I feel, I try to do something fun at least once a week. Tomorrow I’m going to my girls college for some homecoming festivities. Getting to the place is not the issue, it’s once I’m there having to walk the seven to eight blocks to where I can view the parade, that’s going to be the issue. I’ll be able to spend some time with at least one of my daughters tomorrow but the other one will be busy with band stuff. I’ll see her in passing.
I’ve also bought a drone. It’s a Phantom 3 Advanced and so far I like it. I’m still scared that it will fly away on me and I’ll never see it again. It takes pretty good pictures and real good video. I’ve already been asked to do some aerial photography of some upcoming events so at least I’ll be able to sit down while I do that.
Anyway, that’s what’s been going on lately. Maybe I’ll get some relief for my breathing soon. We’ll see.