And it’s been a rough couple of months. I had hoped that this year would be better but it’s been far from it. I won’t bore everyone with the details but I’m hoping for a turning point soon.
By this time last year I had already put several hundred miles on my bicycle. This year, not to much as a single mile has been put on the saddle. Thanks to the new cancer meds I just don’t have the energy. Everyday is a challenge just to get out of bed and go to work. I look forward to the end of the day when I can take a shower and sit in my recliner. My weightloss goal that I’ve set for myself for my kids graduation is so far out of reach right now that I’ve come to the conclusion that there is no hope in ever reaching any type of goal, ever.
Things have got to turn around for me, and soon. Tomorrow I will try again to get on my treadmill. The problem I’ve had in the past four months is that my feet won’t let me. They hurt me so bad toward the end of the day but tomorrow I will not let that get in my way. If I don’t at least try to get my weight down by the end of May then I’ll feel like I’ve let only my kids down but myself down as well.
I’ll let everyone know how that works out.
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You are in a very tough spot. I have a friend who just went through it… interesting couple of thoughts:
He wasn’t fast but he said cycling was the only thing that kept him from feeling nauseous. He also struggled to find a way to get out the door but he did. Now that he’s done he believes that staying fit meant getting through chemo better than anyone expected.
I agree and trying to break our of this mood that I’m in. I love cycling so much but right now I’m too heavy for my bike. it’s going to be toughaving I know but I’m willing to give it a,shot once more.
Just gotta do it. Get a cheap mountain bike (maybe even a used one) that you won’t mind beating up a little bit and ride the wheels off of it. Snap out of it, dude. You’re better than a bad mood, you’ve broken through it before, one pedal in front of the other. I believe in you.
Good luck.
I am so sorry to hear of your current difficulties. Heartbreaking. But as one who has dealt with my own cancer and my partner’s, I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel. The best advice I can give you is to be kind to yourself, do only what pleases you, and celebrate little victories. Sending positive vibes
Thank you for your kind words. I will try and do just that.